Finally it has begun. Long and exciting month indeed. Didn't get to a good start, so just have to pace myself and let the momentum increase asap! Came home rather down today, unsure of the reason. Bogged down with thoughts that filled the mind..clogging and blurring my focus on things. Arrived through the door, and into my room, feeling totally distraught. Probably the exams. Dad's implicit expectations, mum's expectations as well, although my mother took the effort to continue encouragement, and hope that I can do better for the other exams to come. It's 2 papers down, many more to go.

Hope they can just all start tomorrow, save the agony. But it's a good test of patience and perseverance, mental strength to cope with difficulties and draggy time schedules you wish you could speed em up. The timings are beyond our control, so let them be then. However, it surfaces now and then, annoyingly, telling yourself that you know conspicuously that it should end so much early. No prolonged tests...

Chritian music is inspirational, keeps reminding you of the things that are really important, which, imperceptibly, goes outside our 'radar' screen. Not to say that exams aren't important. They are inevitable, manageble, yet seriously daunting at times.