Am i letting this stress take over? it doesn't feel that scary, but deep down inside, i know the adrenaline rush is heightening my ability to absorb information, preparing me for battle.

the work doesn't seem to end. the preparation never finding its way to the end.


i just don't feel prepared.


and i don't seem to want it arriving. for that means judgement. i would have to come to terms with whatever result i get, and the hope and eagerness to do well would face its reality. but time doesn't stop, and we would have to keep going.